My dearest you…you’ve struggled so long as a slave to how you see yourself. I know you can rationalize the why and I know you think that you have a healthy grasp on it but those are lies. You are consumed, enslaved and you have got to let go. I know how that sounds…I know that right now you’re thinking that if you just let go and live your life without worrying about your sugar intake or the fat content in your food and trying to balance it out against your next date at the gym that you’ll gain weight and feel guilt, shame and depression. I know that’s what you’re afraid of – you’re not terrified of gaining weight, you’re terrified of not being happy in your own skin. But my dearest, let me ask you a question. What if this skin, this body, this shape is the exact shape, body and skin that your Heavenly Father has gifted you. Gifted…gift. He gave it to you as a gift. I know you see it as something that needs to be improved on…I know that you think that there’s this magical point where you will feel happy with how you look. But what if there isn’t some magical point?
Dear one, being happy in your own skin is not the goal of your life. I know you know that deep inside. I know that’s why you fight so hard, I know that’s why you bury your struggle so deep. You know this struggle is distracting, you know it robs you, so you try not to fight it…but ignoring is not defeating it. Defeat is in the surrender and in that, the freedom.
Find the freedom in the defeat…ask for it…get on your knees and ask.
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