I admit it. I watch Keeping up with the Kardashians. Yes, I know how silly, pointless, mind numbing, and let’s be real, incredibly frivolous this show is…but yet, it’s one of my favorite guilty pleasures. A recent episode focused on Kim Kardashian and her fear that she was “losing her cool”. She frantically panicked trying to remedy the situation, making herself look like a fool in the process. I mean, who wanders around worrying about that?! Oh that’s right, I do.
Andrew and I arrived a little early to one of our photoshoots. If I’m being honest with myself, I was afraid of the shoot. I was afraid that I would leave the shoot uninspired by my work, that I would get home with my images and want to put my head on the desk and sob because of my lack of ability and that I would sit down to write and still find myself struggling with a severe case of writers block. I was afraid that the shoot would more blatantly point out that I was losing my cool. And come on, who wants a photographer who’s lost her cool?
As I began the session, I resigned myself to acceptance – I’d lost my cool. So, I stared at a little yellow flower and wondered if I was gonna look like a fool. But something happened: my first frame inspired me…then the second…then, okay well then there was a bad one in there that I quickly deleted {cause let’s be real, not every photo is perfect!} but the session inspired me. The session lifted my spirits. It warmed my heart like a perfect cupcake and foamy latte. And that little yellow flower, now it serves as a photo reminder to be willing to trust the process…and to be willing to look like a fool.
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