what next 2012

i love creating lists. goals, post its, highlighters, pens, notebooks, calendars…let’s just say office depot is my happy place. but once january 1 rolls around, suddenly those lists, goals, post its, highlighters, pens, notebooks and calendars terrify me. suddenly, coming up with what’s next for the year makes me want to run and hide. the fear of failure will usually incapacitate me for a time until finally, i pick up the pen, the notebook and set aside a highlighter, stack of post its and the calendar, and face my fear.

i’m always afraid my dreams are too big. i’m always afraid i’ll give into my laziness and my fear of failing will become a reality. but i’m also afraid that one day, i might lose my passion due to complacency. i want something great. i want something big. so here’s what next.

• find balance in my work life and personal life
• do work that makes me happy
• shoot 12 weddings
• complete the challenge
• begin the 2013 re-branding process
• complete all notebooks and ideas from jasmine star and lara casey workshops
• better utilize two bright lights
• shoot at least two themed shoots
• incorporate my clients story into their engagement shoot, stop shooting cookie cutter engagement shoots that any couple could be dropped into. if that means costs go up in order to do shoots like that, so be it…it’s where i want to be and what i want to be shooting
• install a new blogging schedule that removes the “blogging for bloggings sake” element
• purchase a second 50mm 1.2 for andrew, or an 85mm 1.2 and a second 70-200, new alien bees lighting, and kelly moore bag
• attend a jasmine star workshop or speaking engagement
• create a bucket list of things i want to shoot and then make steps to shoot them
• streamline my post processing and the blogging process
• improve my vendor relationships
• breathe some life back into my client experience. update things, keep it fresh and personal.

photography goals, personal goals, their all done. i have lists. i have a plan. i’m ready to throw it out the window should God’s plans for this year be completely unexpected or out of this world crazy different. it happens and i’m ready. but here we go, 2012…bring it on.

dwell in possibility…